Wednesday, July 31, 2013

A Smoking PUCK Postcard in Summer!

July 31, 2013

Hey there!  And Welcome to the Smoking PUCK!
My Boston-based Ongoing Ode to the Greatest Sport on the Planet.
My joke is this...On the 8th Day, God Created Canadians Because God Wanted Hockey.

There is nothing to talk about in July about Hockey really.
There are lame names for the Divisions...big whoop.
There are Free Agents still out there.
There is talk of Expansion!!!
Who cares!

What I'd like to say is I hope you're having a good summer.
And I hope all the NHL Players are as well.
Healing up, getting in shape, resting with their loved ones, for some settling into new places, for others, living life & hopefully getting ready for another season, in'Challah ;)

So have a good summer.  The Smoking PUCK will see you in late August.
Yet being in the Stanley Cup Finals, being a Bruins fan once again I am amazed how "short" this Summer already feels, like back in 2011 when we won.  I betcha the players would say the same thing.

So Namaste & Good Luck.
And hope to see you at the Gahhden come autumn.

Kriya shakti,
Rev Sully

Monday, July 29, 2013

Monday, July 22, 2013

Station Ident

Hello and Welcome to CHANNEL OCHO!
my contribution to helping write the Internet.
Image above: The "SuperOm", a stylized Om within the iconic Superman diamond with a variation on the classic color combo.  I drew it...then I put it on a Cafe Press tee-shirt but iDigress...

What do I do here? I blog.  Along with the help of my friends who occasionally chime in.
Why?  I'm into writing, sharing stories & experiences and also want to turn you on to something cool or delicious whether it be Music, Fiction, Hockey, Spirituality or a well-made dinner.
This is the magazine on the coffeetable of my Life.  The Coffeetable was where my friends & I would gather, share stories, good meals & company.  Time & Geography have split a lot of that corp up yet we hold it together with the glue of our love & interest in all things cool & fun.

Come check out the Archive of Articles:

And much much more!
Enjoy and go write your own blog if you got something to say.  Let me know if you do.

Eric O'Sullivan
Boston, MA USA
@revsully on Twitter

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Saturday, July 06, 2013

The Smoking PUCK!

July 6, 2013

Fare thee well, boys.  Ahhh...so sad to see any of you go but 'tis the nature of the beast we call "Free Agency" and Playing the Game...
See Ya, Andrew Ferrence.  To his hometown Edmonton, to play for the Oilers.  Free Agent.
Goodbye, Nathan Horton.  Who can blame you?  You gave your all for the Black & Gold and ended up Black & Blue.  Seeking a quieter life than Boston can offer, the injury-prone star signed with the Columbus Blue Jackets a 7-year deal as a UFA.
Dasvidaniya, Anton Khudobin.  Did I even spell your name correctly?  You were here for 5 minutes.  I'm sure the next pine rider appreciates you leaving.  Signed as free agent with the Carolina Hurricanes.
Sbohem, Jaromir Jagr...late season rental paid off huge.  Yet he doesn't want to come back to Boston.  He's an Unsigned Unrestricted Free Agent and will ply his trade elsewhere for as long as he can.  Kinda like a Kwai-Cheng Caine wanderer.  Skating from town to town, helping where he can with his "Kung Fu" but iDigress...
Furthermore, Peace Out, Rich Peverley.  Stalwart forward packaged in with the...
Shocking But Acceptable...finally Adieu, Sweet Prince.  Tyler Seguin.  Traded to the Dallas Stars amid allegations of not being bruised up enough with not enough points by the end of the Finals...and being a rich, handsome, young 20-something with a Twitter breadcrumb trail that reads like a script from an episode of "Entourage".  Maybe a trade will mellow him out into the Fine Hockey Player he was supposed to be.
On the In Side, the Bruins get RW Loui Eriksson from Dallas, the meat of the Seguin/Pevs deal.
Oh...and the Bruins netted a big splash forward.  Jarome Iginla.  Who chose the Penguins over the Bruins at the trade deadline this past 2013 season.  Interesting...and a committment to winning as well.
I ain't worried.
I spent the day housecleaning.  Like the Bruins.  Purging, Taking Care of Business, Culling Dustbunnies.  Cleaning the bookshelves.  Pulling out the closet.
So like the Bruins, I made room for new things with a little straightening out.  Getting ready for the next season, eh?
I'm once again taken by the similarities between hockey & real life.

Kriya Shakti,

Thursday, July 04, 2013

Get in My Belly! The 4th Would Not Be Complete without Fireworks, Beer and...


To celebrate the 4th of July, I wish to share my BBQ Sauce recipe & technique with you.
My Uncle Vinny Olivera loves it and so does the rest of my friends & family.
I broke this down into pictures and hints.
This BBQ sauce is fresh, delicious & easy to make if you have a few modern tools around.
I got a stick blender.  That's about it.
First: a white or Spanish onion, I use roasted garlic clove but you could use fresh minced.  I add a dash of thyme & rosemary to the pot with a little of the roasted garlic oil & a pinch of kosher salt.  I reserved a bit of the onion to caramelize.  If you pay attention, it's 2 applications of the similar technique...I promise knowledge but iDigress...
In this pic I also got a few of the BBQ sauce's essential ingredients: Ketchup, Molasses & Apple Cider Vinegar.
Onions, garlic, thyme, rosemary.  Covered small pot with very little oil.  On VERY Low hear such as Simmer or 1.  Keep covered & Steaming.  This is called Sweating.
Above in the uncovered pan on a VERY Low heat for a long time is the reserved onion, little oil, low heat and letting the moisture evaporate, not condensate.  The difference turns the sugars in the onion to Caramelize therefore giving it the distinct brown color & deep, sweet flavour.
Once the sweated onions have given the gift of their inner waters to the pot about 20 minutes later, add the ketchup & molasses.  Turn up the heat to a boil then drop back to a simmer...we're almost finished.
Now sweeten the pot with a few simple friends in moderation:
a few drops of Tabasco
a few decent shakes of Worcestershire
and a scant 2-3 capsfull of Apple Cider Vinegar.
The secret to this all is Tasting!  Keep a clean spoon handy and keep tasting your sauce!  Only you know just exactly how you LOVE your BBQ Sauce.  This is the part when you fine tune it.  Too sweet, use a little salt.  Too salty, use a little white sugar.  Too bland, try another capful of Apple Cider Vinegar until it gets that proper "pop".  Another shake of Worcestershire.
If it's too spicy though, the only remedy I really know of is to make a new, smaller batch of non-spicy sauce, then add the too-spicy sauce a little at a time until you get that Scoville Number you desire.
We are now ready to remove from the heat, bring to the sink and blend with our stick blender.
Into a smooth puree, the colour will lighten from deep red to an orange.
Now....I'm ready.
BBQ Sauce!
Happy 4th of July!  Independence & Freedom from MSG, High Fructose Corn Syrup and a twist-top bottle of Uncle Someone's.  Try Rev Sully's BBQ Sauce and one day it just might be your own brand that you'll "wow" your loved ones with.
Make it yourself!  Huzzah!

Get in My Belly
July 4, 2013

Tao of Sully

Tao of Sully
On Depression

July 4, 2013
Independence Day.

I do wish to be Free.
Hindus call it Moksha.  A Spiritual liberation.  Moksha promised freedom from re-birth.  A way out of reincarnation.

Yet sometime I think I'm the reincarnation of Edgar Allen Poe.  And All I want to do is dash my head against the wall until it all stops.  But that didn't quite work out for him as an escape clause...I think he ended up as Me  ;)  And if I chose the same or any demise then you'd go right back into the Shuffle.  Another Life to Make or Take.  To get it right.

So here we are in the 21st Century.  Things for an Human have never been so good.
And we're still not happy enough.  
Daily, since I was a child I've thought of killing myself.  To make it stop.  This world, the suffering, the shame, the guilt, the dread, the worry.  My stress & anxiety turn me into a different person, an awful person.  I needed to do something about this.  Not only for me but for the people around me at work who get the worst of my bad side.  I had seen so much bad behaviour & violence in my childhood and have always had problems communicating discomforts with words.  It was time to do something about it.
So earlier this year, in a state of complete anxiety & panic, I got help from my Doctor.  She referred me to a Psychologist who therein turned me to a Psychopharmacologist.  So getting my blood pressure & cholesterol in a gameplan, and having someone to talk to about the root of my reactions and also now as a 40-year old man for the first time in his life, having to take an anti-depressant.
Celexa: For Major Depression.  Major?  Sheeesh.  I think they're right.
Some of it is figuring out "what depression is"?  Is it not getting your way?  No.
Is it Rage Turned Inward?  Could Be.
Is it the precious salty waters of the brain in discord, therefore making life a little harder than most. Uh-huh, sure.
I know I am loved.  I got family & great friends.  So that's not that problem.  I know I have the respect of people.  There's so much Positive to appreciate!  Then why the mope?  Depression is more than Not Getting Your Way...but iDigress ;)

This is my conclusion: Depression is an aggregate.  It's the Focus of the Now.  It is a Moment that Slows Personal Space/Time down to agony & self-torture.  The World May or May Not Be Torturing Us...that's not the Point.  The Point is in our reaction to this World and Why we let it get to Us the Way it does...
Why?  Why do I worry so much?  Why?  
Depression is an aggregate.  It's like a tall Jenga and it's just as stable too.
Lots of little things, little things support other little things.  Some lattice of little things become the weight-bearing foundation for other little things, and so on & so on...
It's a lot of "little things" which to me (or your own) are not little things yet they're memories & moments, at crucial times in our lives as we're developing.  I saw abuse all my childhood, nothing but yelling, fighting & hitting.  I know some Moron With a Gun can walk up to anyone this day & age and kill you...saw that when I was 15.  And to tell you the God's Honest Truth, I've always been an oversensitive & weird kid.  I'm an Odd Duck, what can I say?  But for the most part I like Me.  Then there are times I don't like myself very much and I think that's got a lot to do with Depression.  So I've been dealing with this all my life: this stress, this anxiety, this worry...
I've spent years now reading the Bhagavad Gita.  Does that make me special?  No.  I only found something that lightens my burden in life.  But Spirituality wasn't enough.  Although I gave myself the Choice to not get into Bad Situations, I still had the reaction to stressors that transcended personal permission.  Such as, I can say to myself, "Sully, I do not give you permission to stress out at work so darn much" and it wouldn't work.
I needed help.  I literally surrendered myself to my Doctors for my Stress & Anxiety.

After being on Celexa 4 months now and I have to admit, it's made a difference.
And I am grateful beyond words that I feel I have a "partial control" over this.  In one way I've conquered my anxiety & stress to a degree.  Yet my anger & reaction to everyday things remain the same.  I still get very sad sometimes.  And I still think of killing myself everyday yet I laugh that off...I do believe in reincarnation!  And I do believe this Life I'm figuring It out.  It looks scarier to read & say aloud than it's actual intent.  I respect this moment and let it go, fly away like a Black Balloon.  I still have Black Moods when all I can think of is myself & how miserable this now is, of mistakes I've made, of things I've said, of relationships I'm having bad impacts on, of loneliness, of purposelessness...and I bid them pass.  It's easier.  Moments are clumps instead of stretches if that makes sense.
Yet being on an anti-depressant ain't like smoking a joint, it's a rather humiliating experience between side-effects & stigma.  The first few months were kinda a give & take of Great and Awful.  Great being that within weeks, I was reacting less & less in a stressful manner.  That I stopped freaking out, that I stopped getting anxiety over little things all within my wheelhouse at work.  The Awful: Side Effects, a 20-minute wave of nausea about 4 hours after I take it.  It's the medicine itself resting on the stomach lining & a receptor is causing that nausea until the lining has absorbed the last of the Citalopram.  Runny bottom, along with the coffee I normally drink in the morning, the new combo of Celexa & Espresso made for a clockwork run to the restroom every morning (and I'm grateful it was usually before we opened).  Profuse Sweating: I work in a hot kitchen and my forehead turned my nose into a faucet.  Unexpected great side effect are vivid dreaming.  Wow.  I remember a lot of them.  They're good and they're very vivid.
I'm happy to report that most of the negative side effects have worn off 4 months in.  I still get upset stomach for about 5 minutes then mutter, "it must be 8:30..."
It has been a little bit like a roller coaster at times though.  The anti-depressant isn't like a magic cloak of invulnerability.  Maybe it allows more time to choose a different reaction.  Some of my reactions to stressful challenges has been downright awful, childish & moody!  Mostly in realms of what can be perceived as personal effrontery.  Sheesh, one of my beloved co-workers I interpreted made me look bad in front of the pretty waitress...and I kinda got my Irish up.  Exhibited awful behaviour so I don't think I have to worry about the pretty gal anymore ;) sheeesh...I thought this crap was supposed to make me less moody?  That came down to feeling really moody at the wrong moments on the Roller Coaster.  More Jenga Blocks...no more!
But overall, I feel that ride off too.  Maybe this is The Great Equalization Moment" I've been hearing about & waiting for?

Life does boil down to "Shit Happens".  I guess it's OK to be Depressed about Yourself.  What's not OK is letting it ruin your life and the lives of those around us, especially our bosses, workmates & clients.  We have to Live in this World.  It's not the world's fault that We Are How We Are...it's only our fault if We Don't Do Something About It.  That if I'm Superman, then Depression is Lex Luthor...sometimes I get beat up and covered with Kryptonite but there's always a way out & have hope!  Quite a Never-Ending Battle!
Thank you  =)
Independence Day!!!  Can this be my Day too?

Kriya shakti,
Rev Sully

Eric O'Sullivan
Boston, MA USA

PS I'd like to personally thank Wil Wheaton @wilw on Twitter and Jenny Lawson @theBloggess for their candid sharing of their own rollercoasters with Depression.  Thanks, guys...reading you gave me the bravery to get checked & do something.  I am very grateful, please keep sharing & may your dark moments turn to light :) #namaste&goodluck